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This is what they call…total stupidness…

I’m about to reach my dreams, and now i’m thinking about giving it up…

I’m such a fool thinking of the opinions of the people around me while I’m stressed because of their criticisms…

actually I’m really happy about entering college in such prestigeous school…but I don’t want to people to look up to me just because i’m studying in a known school…I still want to be simple and friendly…

About some things regarding my love life…I’m still confused!

I can’t have a boyfriend because my father is not in favor with it but honestly I really am falling in love already with that guy right now…

I want to tell him but I’m scared that he will reject me…That’s what guys think…If a girl is in love with them they just throw them away like garbage…I don’t want to be dumped again…

Well I guess no one else can help me but myself…

-_-vHaVh0u-_-

Befuddled? Sort of…

I am in a spot in my life where I have to make my mind up
for my own good…

I am in a "decision-making-scenario" at the moment..

there are three thing I have to settle…

1st…my future school…essentially, I’m sort of panicky…and this uneasiness is driving me crazy..I have 2 choices; UA&P an enormously popular school where opportunities are countless, or at PUP where I have my colleagues at my back without too much heaviness?

2nd…Can I cope with a relationship at this point? I have fallen for a guy but I’m completely hesitant of doing such because of somebody’s prospects and my dim-witted promises.

3rd…are all these opportunities for life? i am looking forward a greater forthcoming but i’m uncertain I can hold on…

Please…if anybody knows the answers…please tell me…

I miss my classmates…After 4 years of tears, laughter, bewilderedness and tingling moments…we’re now entering a new  realm of possibilities and  experiences.  During our formative years I used to  loathe them but  now is the time where i  become conscious of my mistakes and gaffes and suffer….

GUYS i’m terribly sorry of all the things I did.

THANK YOU for all the lessons and hilarity we shed…hahaha

Love ya…i will miss you…

hay…

I’m about to leave san joaquin-kalawaan high… and step up to a more difficult life…

but do you think i’m ready for this?

I’m so immature…I’m so inferior…I feel like I always don’t belong…

What’s the problem????

I thought I was welcome to their group…

I thought I was needed…

I thought I am a part of them…

but all my thoughts remain as dreams…

because it will never come true…

people thought that I am strong…

that I can handle everything….

But That is not true…I’m softer than ice cream… I easily melt…

what will happen to me?

I need a fixed friend…

people…help!

People treat me as a love guru…

when they need advices they approach me and tell their probs…

but the truth is…you can preach but you can’t apply it to yourself…

I’m in the middle of another decision-making process…

I ought to choose wether to love my lover or still love my loved one…

The problem is…my loved one doesn’t love me and he’s my lover’s close friend…

I can’t hide my feelings forever…In fact my lover knows that I’m in love with his friend.

I dont want to hurt him…But I’m hurting as well…

I think I’m already falling for my lover…But the feelings for my loved one are not yet vanishing…

WHAT SHOULD I DO?

should I let myself fall for my over though I know that I still love my loved on? or should I wait for my loved one even if it takes forever?

hi…

long time no blog!

whatever?!

know what…I want to share something that very few people know..

an unexpected suitor! he is my bestfrend since 1st year high school!

then all of a sudden..out of nowhere…he courted me,,can you believe that!

now i do not know what to think of him…I don’t have an idea if he is just playing games on me or he’s serious…

I can’t tell him that i doubt his honesty but don’t you think it’s a little bit fast?

he just recovered from his heartache then he’s in love again?

I can’t understand…please help!

i thought it’s gonna be a nice week..
a very special day…
But I was disappointed…

I was expecting a lot from my parents…consideration, care…LOVE
i felt it but something inside of me tells me that its not enough..

What is wrong?

Is it my fault that my parents fell out of love?

My God i’m doomed!

why is it that every time i want to be happy…the situations are telling me not to..

I want answers but where will I get that?

at school? at home? inside me?

please help me…

oh my god!!!

this is a once in a lifetime opportunity for a public school 4th year student…

it’s unexpected yet I grabbed it…

>>can’t relate??<<

I was in UAnP and it was our 2nd day when ate carla told me that I should prepare a speech for the closing ceremony…

I prepared a speech about what I have learned in the 2 day seminar…

I gave my opinions and insights about the different issues…

I was so nervous but I told myself that it is a great opportunity…

I delivered it with confidence and I thanked everybody…

after the closing ceremony Mr. Toralba and my crush ate monica caught my attention and informed me that I was the chosen one…

I will be representing the students for the International congress at edsa shangrila..

I was so happy… and now he called me to inform me that there will be a meeting on Thursday and on the 19th, 20th, 21st and 22nd of november will be the congress…

I’m so happy…

_-_vHaVhOu_-_

It’s oct.29 at exactly 2:18 am…

I just realized that this month is so fast yet it is the hippiest month… it started when we used my camera to photo shoot our groups in physics…the journey began…

after that we used it again for another project which is the webpage…

then the third part is when we went to pup..it was exciting but going to intramuros is far more exciting that that of the school…

we rode a kalesa and enjoyed the sceneries in that great ville…

Kath’s birthday is one of a kind too…they had a great house and a warm welcome embraced me when i first entered it…

THE SEMBREAK! i love it…we started it happily by spending 2 days at janine’s house merely sleeping and relaxing…that’s when me and albert spent time together…we bonded a lot and i think gabriel is jelous…what does he want?!?!?

THEN ON Wednesday we went to pinagbuhatan to celebrate luz’ birthday…it was enjoying while watching the chainsaw masacre…

the last 2 days were spent at UANP we had a seminar about I AM STRONG… i met ate carla, ate vina, ate mon, ate vanna and ate ynes… i was mesmerized by their cute accent and beautiful faces…I also enjoyed the food especially the lunch… i loved it…I enjoyed the talks and the exchange of opinions where the students has the rights to speak so I exercised that right…

In the second day…same things happened…only lesser quality of food…but it’s all worth it…ate carla asked me to make a speech and deliver it in front…
I was shocked but I gained consciousness as quick as i could but before i knew it…i slept…joke!!!

I delivered it nicely and everyone was happy for me…then Mr. toralba decided that I could be the student they need for the international congress so I said yes!!

it was exhausting yet enjoying…I love it!

Oh my!!!
I just got home from a day full of work…
We went to PUP at 5:30 in the morning to catch up with that long line…
The signing was well…we are done at exactly 9:00 am in the morning…
Then we went in Intramuros… That was my first time to go out of pasig with my friends…
We rode a Kalesa and we had a round trip at Intra…I had a lot of fun…and lots of pictures as well…
Tomorrows I will be joining a quiz bee…a SCIENCE quiz bee…physics to be exact..
I want to win that contest because that’s another extra curricular act. but if not given a chance…I’ll accept it…huhuhu

SHOUTOUT: It’s very touching to win a award especially in a beauty pageant but the victory will be sweeter with your friends beside you…